yeah... because i'm too lazy to clean this one up, i'll be using, from now one, the other one. judikael add me up if you want to.

"i mean, i'm not really forcing you to take interest in my affairs. "

"oh please, don't pretend that you like me."

"i want you all to know that i'm feeling very depress right now. "

And, apparently, that should be the most important thing i would need for hitchiking.

I just finished Restaurant at the End of the Universe last night and I could say that Douglas Adams (wherever he is) wrote those books while on drugs. That was a compliment, mind you (although it didn't really sound one, eh?). I mean it was really funny. The language, the idea (although sometimes i don't get the math jokes... i wasn't born for it), the characters... everything! i can see most of the techniques were also used in most of Pratchett's story but, anyway, they were two different writers so Adam's techniques worked differently in Pratchett's books.

i skipped gym again. why go to the gym so early in the morning when you can sleep and eat for free in the comforts of you own home? that's what i said to my mom this morning while she was shouting at my ear--or at least tried to. all that came out were sleepy grunts and moans. anyway, i would just tell her i have an assignment on one of my class today and i forgot to do it last night. =__=

i couldn't sleep. Probably because i drank too much coffee this afternoon while waiting for my mom to arrive at SM North. Or probably because i drank too much coffee this afternoon while waiting for my mom to arrive at SM North and thinking too much.

So, yeah, it was the caffeine and the weird feeling i've been having these past few days. It wasn't a bad feeling. On the contrary, it was a really really really good feeling which i haven't felt since high school. it was a sort of good feeling that made me want to smile for no apparent reason. and, fyi, i don't smile for no apparent reason. so what feeling was it really?

it was the feeling of getting old. Of turning a new leaf. Of embarking on a new journey. Whatever you may want to call it, it was that feeling. And i knew that it was that when i suddenly felt bad while looking at my grades in the CRS. you see, i don't usually care if most--if not all--of my grades were not above average. i gave up on being an excellent student long before i knew the meaning of the word 'facade'. and then suddenly... BANG! i felt really really incompetent and started asking myself: What have I been doing these past three years in the university where people kill just to get in?

I wish i knew the answer.

And you know what was weirder? The moment I felt that i'm growing old (kinda), i kind of felt depressed too. see, i'm already too old for neverland and so, even if i didn't really want to grow old (kinda), i haven't had a choice.

anyway... i'm practically cleaning out my closet. it suddenly struck me that my blog was so freakin' emo. all black and shit. (well, i love black although i hate shit)...

...

...

...

i suddenly felt sleepy...

just two more papers.

CL 198 paper is really easy since it's about homosexuality in Arabic literature, a topic i want. but i can't bring myself to do anything. then there's my CW111 revision. i don't know how the hell will i put a stupid town in a stupid philippine setting camping site. we really don't have a camping site anywhere! or, at least i didn't saw anything when we were camping last summer.

summer!! i want to be on summer mode already. i want to play rakion for hours!! i want to watch ***a** for hours!! non-stop!! i want to play at the arcade until i have no more money!!

but...  i wish. after the holy week (which is also no-computer-no-tv-nothing-fun-should-be-done-week), it's already the start of summer classes.

whatever.

anyway, everyone's been doing it:

it's been a while since i've stayed for more than three days and two nights here in bulacan. and i must say, it already brings back feelings i haven't felt for a long a time.

i had an exciting dream for one. back at boni ave, i usually have boring and weird-beyond-weird dreams. sometimes, i don't even dream because my mind would be too tired to think of any.

and then i felt that i wanted to play an online game again. i actually left Biyou back home and went to the computer shop because i really really want to. it's been a while since i've been pissed by some kids who can't type "may ginagawa ako" fast enough for his audience to stay. XP now that i'm here, i want to play ragnarok online again. or try this rakion thingy. but both weren't installed in this pc i'm using so i'll just have to surf the net.

wai~ since both naruto and sasuke died, my mom bought three new rabbits. 2 identical white-with-red-eyes and one brown-spotted. and i called the latter, Luffy because, well, i love luffy. wai~ he/she (because i haven't check if it's a he or a she) is really cute and when i brought him/her down to my room and i lay down with him/her on my chest, he/she just lay there. wai~ he/she's even cuter and sweeter than pillow-jichan (our new dog)

oh no... too many kids are standing beside, behind--all around me!! and i hate these kinds of kids who just look into one's pc, not caring if they're ruining one's fucking privacy. well.. they're kids anyway. but still. waaa!!

no really, i want to play an online game. as in right now. T__T

attended the cal juniors assembly this afternoon.

which resulted to me being drained. i almost fell while on the escalator at the station. O.o what's happening to me? i've been eating my breakfast hearty for tonight i dine in hell!! this is probably stress. i wouldn't know anyway. i don't let myself feel stress in anything that i do, really.

ohmigod. i can't believe my life's a big bore! my biography is just sixteen pages!! i'm like four fucking pages short! what the fuck?! fuck!!

ah!! fuck! fuck! fuck! fuck! fuck! i love the fucking word! fuck! fuck! fuck!!

i really want to cry really. but my fucking brain kept telling me that it would be stupid to cry alone and without any reason. so now i can't eat. kamusta naman? that's probably the reason why i'm really feeling week right now.

shit. after this sem, i'm not going to let myself feel stressed again. if i survived for the past years not doing so, then i can still do it now. (wait.. tama ba ung sentence? =___=)

when i heard this song the first time after i downloaded a lot of one piece stuff, na-lss ako. so i had to look for the video. and here it is. ANG CUTE NG COSTUME NILA!! I LIKE!

...or not.

just scratched two more items on my to do list. i have no idea how i survived another day, but thank God i did.

i woke up late this morning. my body was probably craving for sleep so it shut my alarm down without me realizing it. good thing my mom called at 7:30am to check if i'm already awake(i love her for that). i took a bath as fast as i could, skipped breakfast, rode the third cart on the MRT and got to school thirty minutes early. well, at least i got more time to memorize shakespeare--

--which didn't helped me one bit on my exam. god! if i knew that Macbeth's line wouldn't appear on the exam, i could've used the time i spent on memorizing those by reading the synopsis of the plays. and THAT would help me A LOT in passing the exam. but of course it was to be expected, getting surprised at the exam i mean.

anyway, six more items to do. three of 'em's due on thursday.

our 65-page paper's deadline was moved on thursday. why? cause our prof was in a bad mood yesterday and just decided to make our life more hellish. so there. he just succeeded.

and then one professor was just TOO KIND to deny us an extension of the deadline. and our classmates didn't help. i mean, if you want to pass it on thursday, then PLEASE do so. but an extension won't hurt. argh!! the professor gave us that i've-been-a-student-too-and-i-didn't-have-it-easy shit. blah!

good thing our writing professor gave us a longer time to revise. whew. at least i can do that next week with no pressure whatsoever.
 
mushroom18, do you have any materials about Abu Nuwas? my prof told me i should just concentrate on him. =^0^= sankyuu~

so there... better get started on that 65 pages of bullshit.

I, Jennelle Bonifacio, candidate for the position of
Documentations Committee Head of the University of the Philippines
Anime Manga Enthusiasts present my General Plan of Action for the
Academic Year 2007-2008:

( Plans of Action )

finally scrapped one outta my list!

posted my SPOA at around four so... check it out *thumbsup*

pulled an all-nighter for the Jap film. actually, i enjoyed making it that, even though it was already six in the morning, i couldn't sleep. i just had to finish it. and i did. although Biyou gave up on me and just decided to slow down his actions. so i gave him two hours of rest. i woke up at 8:30 and put in the final touches for the film. now, i'm exporting it as avi file. and when i finally finish subtitling it. bwahahahaha!! it's gonna be off my back!!

i tried memorizing "To be or not to be..." while editing the film but my brain can't absorb more than two lines!

To be or not to be, that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous misfortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles
And, by opposing, end them. To die, to sleep--
No more, and by a sleep to say we end
The heartaches and thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to--'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wished. To die, to sleep.
blah blah blah...

see? i can't even write those lines without referring every now and then to the copy posted in the wall (my mom's gonna kill me if she sees this. XD).

anyway, trying to finish as much today; reading Vonnegut's Bluebeard while memorizing Shakespeare. so far, i can still handle it. memorize one line at a time and so on while waiting for the film.

still haven't started on the children's play due tomorrow. oh shi-- tomorrow!! anyway, i'm used to cram writing but still, i have no idea whatsoever on what to write.

after this week, i'm going to play at G4 for one whole day. anybody want to come with me?

i made a list of To Do things and, guess what? i listed ten things to do with deadlines all on next week (tama ba grammar? i'm really doubting my english skills right now. XD). and guess what again? yiz. wala pa kong natatapos kahit isa.

i had to start the hapon film from scratch again because i forgot to resize it. i'm way too far from memorizing Shakespearean lines. way way waaaaay too far from finishing my CL 198 paper. and way way way (x300) far from finishing everything i have in my list.

well, at least i finished my SPOA (which i will post later when i'm satisfied that i don't have anymore stupid mistakes (thanks MPs for ruining my english (oh cool! a parenthetical phrase within a parenthetical phrase within another parenthetical phrase!))). that's one thing off my list. ^__^

gosh, i kind of regretted not attending our annual summer reunion today. i know i have no choice but still... waaaaa!! i wanna go swimming with my nephews too! i wanna sing with magic sing too! i wanna eat my grandma's dinuguan and bopis and my aunts' other recipes which i'm craving right now this very instant!

waaaaaaa!!

i finally got my solitude for three days and four nights.

my sis and bro went home with my mom to bulacan since it was already their term-break. they were also preparing for the reunion thingy tomorrow with our cousins. i asked my mom if i can skip that since i have a lot of papers due, not to mention exams to pass.

anyway, i finished all marathon-able things here: hentai dvd, yaoi scanlations, downloads, etc. so there are no more distractions whatsoever. currently finishing Othello for my paper and exam.

i skipped gym again today. i was about to work-out when suddenly, the revision for my cw story hit me. and i just had to get home and write it.

anyway... better get back on my acads.


JUST. ONE. MORE. HELL. WEEK. TO. GO.

i'm a Failure. i'm not even worthy to use the capital "i" anymore.

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nakasakay ko si kuya jason on the way to the station. wala lang, told him the news about ame and stuff. then we parted sa q. ave since madudurog ako sa 2nd cart.

wala lang.

see? i fail. even my entry's a failure.

though this is a late post... but what the hell...

Things that made 300 the best movie i've watched so far:

1. Abs
2. Man boobs
3. Large and muscled gay god-king (in golden briefs)
4. blood
5. bgm
6. that subtle (or not so subtle) yaoi pair: the captain's son and the long-haired psycho guy
7. abs

300 exoticized asia. what with the magicians and all. pero okay lang since it made the movie better. my brother and i were talking about the different countries the persian soldiers came from:
the first groups were from india
the magicians were from iraq
the elephant-riding group from thailand
then the immortals were from japan (2 samurai swords!)

anyway, last saturday was the first time in my 19 years of living that we watched a movie as a whole family. whole meaning: father, mother, brother, sister and me. well, there's no difference when i watch with my friends except that i have to watch my mouth. i tend to curse too much and, with my father sitting next to me, i had to be really really really careful.

and then something bad happened. my mom fell off the stairs from the attic and hit her head. she cried because apparently we were too stunned to take action and she was worried 'cause what if she lost her consciousness and we wouldn't know what to do. or something like that.

what's weird was that, when she was crying, i'm not affected at all. i even fell asleep while she was ranting or something. was that bad? does that mean i don't care anymore? i don't know. i did worry that's why i woke up early to check if she was still breathing. i mean, a simple fall can cause an old person's life right? anyway, good thing she's all right. and because she's paranoid, she'll have a check up at makati med tomorrow morning.

anyway, still got that cl 115 report thingy to do.

not that i don't have anything better to do. i actually have a lot!

CL 198 for one. got to start on that paper-slash-mini-thesis for an effing elective. and i have to start reading Woman At Point Zero by...by...a woman writer in Middle East (no offense. i can't really remember the name).

and then there's my Eng23 class. still don't have an idea on what to write for my paper. i'm thinking of a reaction paper on Othello: justifying Iago--or something like that.

then i have to finish Kurt Vonnegut's Blue Beard for the upcoming exam on Eng42.

and the film for our final presentation in our jap class last sem. almost through with it, if it wasn't for my laptop having no space anymore. i need to burn some things. XD

BUT!

Good Omens is such an entertaining book.

it's surprisingly more entertaining than Pratchett's Thud! although the narration kind of makes my eyes twirl. so many words to explain something. if what i heard from Justice is right, than Gaiman has to master Pratchett's narration yet. Pratchett does tend to jump from one paragraph to another and yet, when you think about it, it's still kind of relevant.

and it's not that long.

well, that's my opinion anyway. although i know i shouldn't be making any criticisms if i haven't finished the whole story yet.

but, hey, i think Gaiman rocks. (of course Pratchett rocks more. ^_^) and so does Good Omen. i can't even put it down (except when i need to anyway). i wonder if Gaiman will come back here. when he was here, i'm not yet a fan of his. i wish i can have at least one signed book (and not pay thousand bucks for it). i wonder if i can mail it to them or something? does that still work?

anyway, i should be going. we will have a dinner date with my aunt who came from the US. i don't really want to go and just read here or sleep early. but i'm too lazy to cook now and i think i'm craving for pasta.

and Seattle's Best coffee too.

no really.

just saw this while my bro's watching. ang galing nya. he's actually super famous he even has a wikipedia article.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/JerryC
you've probably heard of him, but i haven't so... kyaaan~ ang cute nya

i don't usually update my journal every single day especially when there's nothing interesting to share. and for the past days there are nothing interesting to share.

but just so my brother can't borrow my laptop, i'm updating...

well...

hmm...

let's see...

finished all of the 6 One Piece dvds. although i did skipped the Skypiea part because the subs suck. i mean i watched those 10 eps or so with low res but sucky bad-grammar-ed subs? nuh uh! it sucks since i was left hanging in the last episode. now i'm dying to buy MORE eps of the anime.

unless of course Shadow or Shinsen subs upload another Ghost Hunt ep. weee~

anyway, i was kind of nervous this afternoon because it was the first time i skipped class three times consecutively. and i was a bit scared that maybe my prof will recognize me--or worse won't recognize me and ask me if i'm his student. good thing he doesn't remember. and apparently many of my classmates skipped class consecutively too. >.<

i just lost Php850 today. i bought a WinXP installer for Php150 because i can't find chibi_boom's. the big question is why can't i? i mean, i checked all places where i put my cds and yet.... *sigh* anyway, i'll just try again when i get back home in bulacan.

Php700 went to Terry Pratchett's and Neil Gaiman's Good Omens hard cover copy (did i construct the sentence correctly?). so, yeah, i just bought two hard-cover books in one week. Pratchett's Thud! was Php400 (i think).

see? i just lost Php1000 and i don't even have a job yet! =____=

more...One...Piece...episodes...

oh... just to show you how addicted i am now to One Piece, i did this for my wallpaper:



sorry if it's a bit crappy... i'm not really good at this. >.<

i suddenly want a new phone. although my mom would die first before she agrees. we're still paying for the laptop and the gym's monthly dues soo.... T__T

must...make...this...update...longer...

i felt guilty this morning when i received an email from my aunt. see, we're supposed to have our annual Torres Clan summer reunion on March 17-18 just before my uncle went back to Saudi. i texted her if she could just reschedule it and, well, she did. JUST FOR ME. gosh! nakakahiya. everyone had to change their scheds just for me. so i emailed her again, since one of our cousins can't make it on the 24th (the supposedly new date), and said she could just put it back on 17-18. besides, i won't enjoy the swimming without my cousin's son Cloud.

look:



Cloud's the smaller kid on the right. never mind the other one. he's their neighbor (i think).

ah.. i think this is enough. besides, my bro finally got to sit in front of the pc and my sis is busy with the tv. my laptop's safe. hihihi i'm so selfish today.

i was late. i arrived at 9:00 and my class was on 8:30. good thing the prof's not in. he's probably sick again or something.

so... 2:30 pa next class ko. i decided to go home since hindi nagrereply si tel and i don't want to waste money for lunch. so ngayong nasa bahay na ko... tinatamad na kong pumasok for eng 42 and cw 111.

my eng 42 prof doesn't check attendance anyway (if he does, dropped na ko. XD) but i'm kind of nervous kasi i don't know when the next exam will be. O.o

but i don't really really really really really really want to attend that class. nadiscuss na naman ung ibang stories sa dati kong class so i'm just hearing the same things again. tapos baka ang idiscuss na namin ay Pretty Mouth and Green My Eyes. tapos palalabasin din nya ung mga taong nadiscuss na yon so we can take the afternoon off. waaa.. nasasayangan ako sa oras na isstay ko sa school when i could stay at home and watch One Piece!!

haayy

ang weird...

last saturday night, napansin ng brother ko na may tubig sa labas ng banyo so akala namin may leak na naman sa banyo sa taas. we called for the maintenance person and sabi nila wag daw gamitin ung taas.

which we did. but the water never stopped coming. hindi naman malakas pero, yun nga, di tumitigil at nauubusan na kami ng floor mats and ibang basahan.

ngayon, binutas na nila ung maliit na part ng floor at wall ng banyo para makita kung saan nanggagaling yung tubig. wala naman daw pipe sa sahig at nakapatay na ung water line namin. but still may tubig na lumalabas.

O.o weird...

and i was just watching Ghost Hunt... =___= kowaii

woke up at two to try and finish the novel required for CL 198

what the fuck! a frickin' elective class requires us to read two fucking, boring and badly translated novels from the middle east. i can't say they write bad since they've written it in Arabic but the translation? my god! i could've written better in just one day!

bought One Piece, Kyo Kara Mahou and a hentai collection at Divi last saturday. haven't started on the second one, still at ep 21 on One Piece and i can't seem to make myself watch the second movie from the hentai collection because it's fucking dubbed in english. =___=

oh... haven't finished with Fushigi Yuugi either and still downloading ep 15-20 of ghost hunt.

hahaha.. adik na naman ako sa anime. this will make my already hard acads harder. too... many... distractions...

we still don't know what we are supposed to do for our thesis. if we're really going to write a collection of the genre we choose, i really think i should start doing it right now. but i can't decide if i'm really going with fiction or non-fiction. fiction is my passion. but there's money and a lot of fame in non-fiction.

oh, and i do wish a kind professor would offer a cl 172 class this summer so i can graduate on time. XD

anyway... this is just a senseless update so i can rest my mind from this crappy novel. 200++ pages to finish before 6am!! gah!!